Well, I got "the boot, part one." Hopefully there will not be a part two. But I got sent down to first session. Part of me is glad because this will put me with players that are closer to my level, and I'll look slightly less buffoonish with JV-ish players as opposed to upper JV and/or varsity players. The other part of me is pissed at myself for even trying to persuade myself that I had a fighting chance in second session. If I make the team, JV is where I will be. I probably won't even be starting, though that is my goal by the end of the season.
Assuming that someone with my (lack of) experience can play at the varsity level is just absurd. I mean, it's not like I'm dumb as a rock. I understand the concept of pretty much everything we do. I just can't do it. Especially in game-like situations. I can field (sometimes). I can throw. But when you put it all together, I choke. Mostly with infield, since I've had too many softballs to the face, throat, chest, shins, ankles, etc. I know that shouldn't stop me. But it does.
Oh well. To quote Jayne from Firefly, since I'm allowed to do that now that I've seen the first episode, "Saw that comin'."